Weird

Am home for my weekly pilgrimage to visit my parents and scab food off them.. hehe.. (i miss my mum's cooking!!)

every time i walk into the backroom, i have this urge to walk outside to go see my dog..
but then i take a double take and realise, wait.. no.. he's gone.. he's not there anymore..

but i walked outside anyway, and looked around.. its getting cloudy and overcast...
i noticed dad's taken away his food and water bowls... but his leash is still there..
i am overcome with a wave of nostalgic emotions...
a part of me wishes he were still here for me to say hello to, to give him pat, a hug and to much around with him...

memories come flooding back...

am i getting emotional? kinda, but i'm not getting teary...
(cos real men don't cry! Not... hehe... :P)

but i am feeling emotions of emptiness, and longingness, and sadness..

amazing what little things like a dog leash hanging off a chair can do in stimulating emotions and memories...

i just feel weird....